2010 Highlights

You can always have things to complain about, but why spare your time complaining when you have so much to be thankful for? Make a post and let me know about your 2010 highlights! Don't hesitate to write everything from big to small, good and bad, you can certainly be thankful for anything, and I mean anything at all ;)
Here's a little somethin-somethin to help you think of what you could write about.

Well at the beginning of the year I had the courage to chop my hair off! Well not completely showing off the scalp by going bald, but I have never been a short-haired gal, so this would be a first! And I also straightened it, because my hair was so wavy that it didn't look good short. I loved it at first, but I kinda miss the long and natural wavy hair of mine that I can twirl my finger to and not do much about it 'cause it looks good even when I just got out of bed.

I landed a gig with Mercedes Benz, so I got the news that they're looking for a Brand Ambassador, so I went for an interview, and they told me that they didn't know I was only 17. They wanted someone who's older, and of course-- more experienced. But I got the call even though I flunk the presentation 'cause I was sooo nervous! They worked with my presentation skills, grooming skills, so many things I've learned from the pros, and I just couldn't be happier to have learned so much at this age :D

I was involved in IIMS (Indonesian International Motor Show) and there's a competition for the whole 10 days event, I was voted as Miss Favorite Motor Show! (See more about it here.) I represented Mercedes Benz at the event and the job sounds pretty easy, although the heels that I wore were insanely hurtful! So technically I had to be a presenter slash model for the SLS AMG. I got to work with people from Frameworks like Robert and Adam, whom at first I thought are killer leaders (picture Hitler!) and they turn out to be the sweetest, most hilarious bosses to work with! Best job to date. The funny thing was, I had to do a fitting with the designer for the 'costume' of the event. So it was at 9 in the morning, and I woke up at 8, didn't shower, took a bus ride straight away! And I wasn't late, miraculously the traffic was nice to me :) And because my house was far from where the IIMS took place, they provided an apartment and every morning I would wake up to the hairdresser and make-up artist ready to get me all dolled up. Fab lane! :D

My Grandma passed away and it was certainly the kind of news that didn't get me jumping up and down in joy. It was an 84 years well lived, and I'm glad I don't have to see her suffer again. I don't see her often, but she's a strong woman that I look up to, and her love story with Grandpa, how she stayed faithful although Grandpa died of cancer early in his 30s and she had to raise 13 kids all by herself, that taught me a lot. The family tradition was Christmas with Grandma at her place, and it's a first that we have to celebrate it without her, it's just not the same, but I know she's looking down on us, smiling. I miss her :(

I had lunch with my Dad whom I haven't met for 4 years or so. He didn't change much, still glued to the phone, busy with work. We talked a bit, told him about Mercedes Benz and everything that had happened. Oh, to those of you who didn't know, my parents separated when I was at the age of 13. Call me whatever you like, broken home, unlucky, but I'm thankful that i learned so much from the experience, and it's great that even all through the crazy things that have happened, the people who really matter don't leave.

There are also major changes like wearing braces recently and moved to a new apartment. Also other fun highlights like the Dufan trip with friends, Christmas barbecue dinner, and the list goes on. I just wish it will all get better and better after this-- just like it always is, but I just hope it won't change. I'll be the girl with the big laugh, has a passion for music and to write. Who will never put a price on family, friends, and loved ones. And just miraculously find her ways back to her dreams, no matter how hard she insist God on stopping her.


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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The Last Three Days

At first, I actually didn't want to tell anyone, but since some of my friends knew, and I couldn't share anything if I kept this to myself. And I tell this story in the most humble way possible, with the least intention to brag. So umm, I guess it has been an annual thing for me and Mom. We started this from last year, I try my best to make it happen 'cause not only your body has to be prepared for it, but so does your mind, and I received more that I could ever think of this year! Basically we took three days off of our normal routine, 'isolated' ourselves from any contact with the outside, no cellphones, no TV, no internet. We fast for three days, no food, no liquid, and basically do nothing but pray, listen to Christian music and listen to sermons. Last year Mom had all the recordings of different services from a few churches and we get to listen to it on tape and watch some of the services on TV. This year was different, we only pray, listen to Christian music and read spiritual books. Somehow I managed to finish 3 books in less than 2 days, well to calculate based only on the hours, it was actually less than 24 hours, minus the nap and the baths I took in between. Talk about some divine intervention!
I learned quite a lot of things from the 3 days of 'spiritual vacation' I took with Mom. Trust me, it wasn't a walk in the park, and of course my body wanted to collapse. It's also harder when you dream about sushi in your sleep!

I literally felt like Julia Roberts from the movie Eat, Pray and Love. And this is the 'praying' part of the whole 'finding-the-pieces-of-your-life' journey. In some of my upcoming posts, I would love to share what I've learned from the books that I read in the 3 days that took me to 'another world.'

I am not the most religious person, I have a lot of sins, and I'm not the holiest person in the world, but throughout my life, I just don't see myself-- let alone living; without A Greater Power taking an amazing care of me, of my family, I'm just overwhelmed by everything that God has given to me, it bends me to the knees to see the doors opening up when one door was closed down, thankful is an understatement. I might not have the perfect reason when people come up and ask me, "Why do you think God exist?" I'm not an expert when it comes to explaining all those things. All I know is, I don't have to go to the sun to know it's up there, I can just feel the heat and I know there's a 'power' producing the heat. It's the faith that keeps me going :)


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Anything is Possible

It might seem impossible, but He made it possible,
I might not be able, but He made me more than just being capable,
He equips and prepare,
He shows the ways I could never imagine in my wildest dreams,
When I thought my world is coming to an end, He turns it upside down,
Even when things go wrong, all that counts is to keep on believing,
To walk by faith, and not by sight,
So keep the faith :)

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Last Confession-- I'm Pathetic

I was suppose to go to a family gathering today, but since I just slept at 4 in the morning and these braces made it impossible for me to eat anything solid, I decided to be lonely donkey and stay home. Plus, Grandma is not here, it just won't ever be the same again. But there are thoughts haunting my mind today, brought me back to some of the 'plans' I had in the past few months.

I still can't figure out why things didn't work out in the love section of my life. I mean, I don't make the highest standards, and honestly, by Christmas this year, I thought I would share it with somebody. Someone, you know, special.

And seeing that I have to go through it alone, for the 18th time in a row, again (Not to mention, first Christmas without my beloved Grandmother, who passed away last May), make me realize that there's something wrong. Really wrong. I don't know if it's me, or if it's just not the time yet, I just couldn't figure it out. Maybe it's because I've always been occupied, both in time and in the mind, that I didn't really put much thought about it, but honestly, it's starting to get to my nerves.

Before you know it, it's my Valentine, then it's my 19th birthday (Gasp! I'm old!!!), then it's Christmas all over again. I did get my heart broken this past year, also got near to a relationship, and then onto another heartbreak. I know, this is pathetic, sharing my love life to the whole world! Which won't make any of this crap any better, this could only lead to a much worse reputation! Ha, who am I kidding... What reputation, it's not like I have one anyways!

Throughout the heartbreak(s), I'm just thankful I don't get to a relationship which could only lead to a much worse pain, because I was shown little by little what the guy(s) really is(or are) like before falling a little deeper for them. I just can't imagine having a relationship with a guy who's not worth it after 'training' myself single for my whole life! Man, another pathetic statement. Cheer up, Nad, it's Christmas for goodness sake! Well I hope you were amused, what can be a better entertainment than someone reality which sucks a whole lot more than yours right?



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Came By Surprise

I can barely pull my pants up as I changed into my comfortable PJ's after a nice quick bath. It was a well spent Christmas Eve, and although most of the day were made up of sudden change of plans that turned into new memories to remember in a lifetime, I went with the flow anyways. I ate like crazy! And don't even count the calories I stuff into my mouth! Holidays are the only exception, and Christmas is the first and only reason I wouldn't be getting near the scales or the measuring tape anytime soon! Anyone who knows me would never even consider offering me french fries, but today, I ate a whole lot of 'em without having anyone shoving any fries inside my throat.

It's not even about the food, or the places that I spent Christmas Eve with! It's the people that were there with me throughout the day that made this day ever so memorable.

It's December the 25th, and I just want to say how amazingly grateful for the people I met by chance, and yet they stay in my heart forever. How I learned that not everyone would stay like I want them to, but the memories remain eternally. People who I thought won't even be able to meet, and to my surprise became really good friends with me. Who only saw me on the tiny square boxes of their screen, yet have treated me like a friendly neighbor. I'm overwhelmed by the exceptionally, outstanding hospitality by friends who cared for me like family. Everything unplanned are better than the things that crossed my mind. Friends who know what I want and helped me achieve my dreams 'cause they know I'll do whatever it takes, but have never given me one single negative response, not even one bit. To those who reminded me that good food doesn't always mean living healthily, but the comfort it brings is just beyond explanation! Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Currently...

I miss my high school friends. I've been constantly Skype-ing and having conversations on MSN and it make me realize that they are just a few of the people that know and love me the most. They know me inside out, and although distance (and time difference!) has separated us, nothing much has changed. We can still have a good laugh and talk about nonsense and remind ourselves how great we get along from the high school days. December has been quite the 'magical' month that we all believe and are passionate about. I hope it never ends.

I love the smell of new books! I'm going to share some of the things that I learned from books that I'll read in the following weeks, and I gotta say, I'm pretty excited! I love spending my time at the bookstore, just dive into the pages that bring you to another world and inspire you to make something more out of it, like posts or have new perspective on things! I believe you can pass down bags, clothes and shoes to your children, but how far will a dressed up body go with an empty and hollow mind?

I'm currently reading a book that opens up about how meat are made from scratch. How the animals are killed, how the first process occurred from being skinned to being the delicate meal on your steak plate and/or your burger wraps. It's quite an eye-opener. I'm going to tell you more once I get to read it further. The only thing that is a little bit of a downer is this book was translated to Bahasa. Not that I'm not a fan of Bahasa Indonesia, my native language, but since the original book is made in English, the cynical statements and the sarcastic jokes just don't mean the same, and to look for the original book which is made in English, have to be in imported bookstores such as Kinokuniya or Times, and the only bookstore near my house in Kelapa Gading is Gramedia, which sell limited imported books. Oh well, I'm going to finish reading it anyway, since it has an interesting presentation to it, from surveys to researches to personal experience, this book just make me want to flip through the pages and find out more. Forgive me for being such a curious George :p




KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Em(brace) Change

I just got braces! Ah! I'm sort of excited, somehow, 'cause in a matter of months, my teeth would be perfect (hopefully!). No more little miss snaggletooth that my family and friends tease about :p But to deal with a lot of pain, and from past experience of friends who had worn braces before told me that I'm going to lose weight because putting braces on meaning I have to be ready to give up solid food for a while! I didn't know I have to deal with porridge, soft biscuits and banana, I feel like a toothless toddler! I find it weird at first, 'cause it made my face look like a cow! Or horse. And dealing with mouth ulcer! Thank God I could still eat frozen yogurt :) I would have to take a tooth out for my next dentist appointment, surely not looking forward to that :( But I'm glad that I got braces anyways! And big thanks to Mom who helped me deal with everything and cook me some yum yum porridge for every meal :D

Last picture without wearing braces! With Vera :)

Yes, it hurts so bad.


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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I'm Me

No matter how much you say you never let people's opinions get to you, you'd still second guess yourself for it. I'm not much of an emotion-hider, even if it's not a noun, I don't care, I made it up, I know you're smart enough to understand. If I'm sad, then I'll appear sad as sad can be. If I'm happy, I'll spread it. If I'm angry, I'll show it. I know there are things that can still need some improvements, but I never want to change in the following years to come, I'd still want to see myself being this little girl with big dreams inside her head. Even when her previous dreams had came true, she'll keep on dreaming new dreams to remind herself that dreams do come true. I would still hold onto principles like there are a lot of things in this world that worth more than money-- how priceless moments can't be numbered. How I'd be broken numerous times, but I never find myself shattered. I'll keep doing things that I love, and be surrounded by people who would love me for me, not who I pretend to be. Who's always thankful for being able to wake up and smell fresh air. Or look forward to eating bread with generous amount of chocolate spread and frozen sliced bananas for breakfast from the night before, 'cause chocolate is all that I need as a moodbooster. Who only needs to listen to Michael Buble after crying her heart out. Who will always remember where she's going, yet never forget where she came from :)

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Please Entertain Me

People asked me how could I balance work and pleasure at the age of 18 because I barely have any spare time left, or time for myself. Let alone to go on dates, I don't even see my Mom that often. I told 'em, I make a little room to meet my friends. Even if it means at 10 or 11 p.m and just having a simple chat over some cheesecake. Or to go over their house and watch some DVD, even if it means I'd be home late or I'd have to give up some of my bedtime, but to me at least I was physically there with them, even when I was exhausted and everything from work.

I'm glad I got to catch up with a few new flicks in the cinemas. So here's a post of me giving a little feedback of the movies I recently watched. First off, Rapunzel 3D. Well, I know it's originally called "A Tangled Tale," but here in Indonesia, it's called Rapunzel. I don't know if it's for marketing purpose, or some other reason, but one thing's for sure, it was nothing like what I thought it would be. Disney, hands down, make the BEST animation and story lines AND SOUNDTRACK! I was singing "And at last I see the light..." all the way back home because it was such a beautiful song and tune to listen to! It was the complete package, the humor, the unexpected twist to the story, the unpredictable ending. All in all, it played with my imagination, just like how I expected it to be. I love movies that give little girls dream that there's happily ever after's, because there is one for each. And I love the great feeling you get after watching a good movie, and that feeling definitely tickled me on the inside after this movie ;)

Another 3D movie that I watched after Rapunzel was Narnia. I saw the trailer and just couldn't wait to see the whole movie. The moral of the story was outstanding, but the effects and everything were just okay, I mean compared to the first and second movie. I was disappointed because Susan and Peter weren't in the whole adventure. Edmund, on the other hand, was just... Dreamy. The movie left a few important messages, and although it's fictional-- in my opinion-- I get it way much better than Harry Potter. I'm up for fantasy movies, as long as they're easy to digest and have really good meaning to the story, just like Narnia.

The third movie that I watched was Due Date. It didn't need much time for me to get inside the L.O.L train, 'cause it was hilarious!!! I was looking forward to see this movie, too, and I love how the lead actors played the characters so well, how they owned it! It gave me mixed kinds of emotions, which I find is good, because that way you'll see how good the actors are, how good the people who wrote the whole script, it was such a delightful movie to see with friends, to have a good laugh and just talk about the whole movie with.

Well just now I saw The Next Three Days. I was happy because this movie was also another good choice. It was a different genre than the previous movies that I watched, this was strictly drama. I love movies that could also make you think, and this falls into that category. Unpredictable, but not disappointing. I love how this movie told about a faithful husband who trusted his wife a 100% and would do anything to bring her back. It was thrilling, and it also gave me that ticklish feeling after seeing a good movie, that indescribable feeling I get that can help me judge whether the movie's bad or good.

Movies can lift up my mood, and I'm such an easy to please person that it can give me a lot to think about and learn from. I'm just glad I could still catch up with new movies, because I'm such a moviegoer and work doesn't always allow me to be one, well I'm back on track! At least for the holiday season.




KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Life's a Joke

"Don't take life too seriously, nobody gets out alive anyways," so I've been told. I've seen people stress out about things I'm thankful for. Just small, tiny details that we often don't look as a blessing anymore. This is the last month of the year, if I don't make the most of it, I might as well stop living. I've always shared my hopes and dreams to the people I trust, and as disappointing some of them may be, I never regret those who once made pretty little footprints in my heart. Even the best kind of friendship has to end at some point. Distance, time, there will be some sort of separation. If you're lucky-- it will be temporary, or if you're not, some may be permanent.

I'm the worst when it comes to saying goodbye, and maybe that's why I'm always tested with it, to make me stronger every time I have to watch people leave. Although it makes me happy because with time, I realize it's for the best. I know I sound like some dark person who experienced terrible loss all the time, well... It's not as bad as it sounds, okay :p I try to convince myself to not be afraid about losing people, because it's just a sign that maybe they just have to leave. Maybe, it's just how the cycle goes. The never-ending cycle people go through. One thing you should never forget is; through every goodbye, smile. So if you think that life's a joke, you might as well just laugh at it.


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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My Prince Charming is (NOT) a Clown

...what if he's your Prince Charming, but you're not his Cinderella?

I suddenly remembered this quote and just feel like talking it out. That's just how I write stuffs, I realize when I get into my own blog, it's full of writings of crap and I don't expect people to like it, because this is my form of stress relief. But if you could relate or understand to any of it, then great!

Okay, back to the first topic. I know, I know, Prince Charming is just another exaggeration. No guy is perfect. But you must have met that one guy, or dreamed of that one guy you've wished you would spend your happily ever after's with. Well to me... My definition of perfect is he completely realizes that I'm not the most beautiful girl on the planet, but truly loves me for who I am on the inside. Who admits that he has issues, but don't mind me when I show mine too. I swore to myself that I would never fall for my own best friend, but then I came to my senses that how can you fall for someone if he's not your best friend first? 'Cause you can break up with your lover, but how could you ever break from your best friend? The one you don't have to pretend to be someone else with, the one you feel safe next to, someone who understands your inside jokes, don't have to feel ashamed to burp or fart on! The one who says, "You're disgusting! Are you a man on the inside who happens to dress like a girl?" and say, "Good night, love. I'll see you soon." every time he's about to close his eyes and go to bed.

I know, I know, it sounded like I made a joke out of it, but I'm serious. I can't spend a good time who I can't share laughs with! Of course I can be serious, but if you meet this person so much in a week (or a day!), you don't want it to be the same old boring routine all the time! Who would?

But the scariest thing about opening up to someone is the gambling part how he would take you as you are, or slowly and surely backing off. If you're not ready to risk yourself of getting hurt, why fall in love?



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Beyond Your Wildest Dreams

Everyone would agree that there must be one movie, or song, or book, or any kind of media that came across in our lives that teach us that dreams come true. Do they really, though? I mean, what is the definition of dreaming, exactly? Do you come into this world knowing just precisely what you want to do in life, or do you grow up having trouble figuring out what is your goal, what drive or desire could you possibly have?

Famous last names, abundance of possessions, they may open doors; but the thrill and pleasure in pursuing the dream is the journey. For so many times I've thought, "No, I'm just like any other person, nothing great is ever going to happen for me." Or, "Well, this is as good as it will ever get." And to my surprise, I just keep seeing doors being opened, and although it's one stair at a time, I'm just happy that I'm moving, not just being stuck in one place.

At the moment your dream might have seem like complete and utter nonsense, or it's just way too impossible. Maybe you ask yourself, "What now? What the heck am I going to do? Yeah, I have a dream, so what? It's not like it's going to happen anyways." You might focus on being not capable because the situation in life somehow forces you to think that your dream is just-- a dream. And there's nothing you can do about it.

The sad thing is, people tend to think that dreams are going to happen instantly, and that is what make people lazy so they'll just sit around and wait for things to happen for them. But that's the biggest mistake. You shouldn't just stop and think, "Oh okay, my dream is going to come true anyways, even if I don't do anything, so I'll just... Wait." Well, you got the waiting part right, but you should still do what is there for you to do, not sit around and do absolutely nothing! If you have to learn, then learn. If you have to practice, then practice.

What I'm saying is, don't just do nothing, but do your part, believe, and at the right time, if you choose to wait, it will somehow make its way to you. Your dream. You're going to see it all come true :)


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want.
Sometimes change is exactly what we need.
And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.
Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing that saved your life.
Accept it, because in the end everything happens for a reason.


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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'Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending, than have to forget you for one whole minute

"Crush Crush Crush"
- Paramore

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In the Dark

It's true how they say you can't choose who gets to be your family. Me, I'm thankful for my family members-- Mom, Dad, and my older brother. Of course I love them and would do anything for them. But when you grow up in the place where I grew up in, I would've stopped and doubt myself if, by chance, in the future I was ask, "Would you die for them?"

I've experienced a different level of being not wanted, of being underestimated, unappreciated. I even thought about not having a family for so many times, being so terrified of what is called marriage. It was by far the biggest impact that created my thick skin. I've survived being alone all this time, why not do it for another few decades?

I know I have my own mistakes, I'm not trying to proclaim that I'm perfect, no. I'm just tired of being pressured, sure my family is not the worst, but the insecure feeling they gave me that made me feel I'm just never good enough; that stabs me in the heart. I bore the pain for so long, thinking I would've actually get out of it. I keep saying that this is too much for someone my age, this is too much. I even tried amusing myself by thinking that maybe I'm special, 'cause I'm different. But that's like believing something good is going to happen, yet you have no idea when or what's in store for you. Saying everything will be fine is easy. Convincing myself to do so, needs a lot of emotional and mental effort.



Calm down. Deep breaths.
Hang on, help is on the way :']
Stay strong, and keep the faith

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A Different Galaxy

Everything seem okay here, but we could be great,
Here and now; I have to settle with what I'm told to do,
Or what I was forced to believe,
To meet you is something I'm forever thankful for,
Lucky to have seen a glimpse of light in the darkness,
I know I have my faults, and you're no perfection either,
But I saw a diamond when you're standing at a distance,
We're meant to be, but not here most likely,
Maybe at a different place, we could just run ourselves free,
Not have to bother about what people say or think,
What would matter is solely what we feel,

How about if you meet me there?
A different galaxy where we don't have to stand on a fragile line,
Between what we know and what could have been,
Where we don't have to wonder where it leads to,
Because we create the future we always wish we have,
So take my hand, let's take this trip for the sake of both of us,

For the moment, I'll snap back to reality,
I know right now the future's not so clear,
'Cause only in a different galaxy, I can touch your face without seeing your tears fall on it,
Where I don't have to fight for what I want to hold in my arms for eternity,
I might as well create that galaxy, just to have you here with me...

Dedicated to my best friend, Gilvina Gunardy, and her boyfriend, Dimas Pradipta :)
(c) Nadia Juliana
o8.12.1o
TeeKay ♥

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You Know That I Can Use Somebody ♥

Remember how one song used to remind you of someone and made you smile all of the sudden, almost as if you went into a time machine and was in the very same moment as when you hear the song? And now I'm feeling all of it over again. Though it makes me feel very much pathetic. Moving on isn't something that I'm a big fan of.

It's like every single time we get to talk, you always strip me down to the core, not in a dirty way, and you get me, because not many people do, they never do, never as much as you.

We came into this world as a nobody and all we need is someone who makes us feel special, as if this life is worth living.

Sometimes in the darkest nights, when I cry myself to sleep when things go so wrong, I reach out to my phone thinking about who could I possibly call or text just to calm me down and say every thing is going to be okay, maybe I do need somebody, and at the most vulnerable times I realize I'm not the strongest person in the whole world, I realized I could use somebody, maybe all this time I've been putting my guards up because I was afraid to open up, maybe I don't want people or 'any certain someone' to find out that I'm not as strong as I want to be seen, I'm actually fragile and weak in certain ways, maybe I'm afraid if they see me as I am and they wouldn't like me. Little by little I'm starting to build bricks of wall so that people wouldn't get in, and now I realized it's the size of the Great Wall of China! Breaking 'em down takes time, and that's all I need to find somebody. Someone like you.

No, I didn't just get out of a painful relationship, quite frankly I'm still happy I've never involved myself in any relationship. Not being in any of the relationship drama just made me realize that maybe I'm not one of those people who easily find someone and let them go the next minute. When I found someone, I get a good hold of them, so that makes it so hard for me to let go. But I secretly trained myself to let people go, learn that it's all a cycle that I'm not in charge of. It gets tiring though, the meeting someone part, the tell-it-all sessions, the 'click' moments, the 'almost-there' part, and when you're a step closer to that stage, it just all... Fell apart. Didn't go as you want them to.

But I've decided to accept it. Being single for 18 years gave me a stronger urge to really make sure if the guy is worth it. I'd rather settle for Mr. Right at the right time, rather than Mr. Right Now and regret it later on.

KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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It's a few minutes past 1.30 a.m. My hopes and dreams are all ending with a question mark. Can I really make it? Will I be able to make them all come true? Please ignore this post. I just need to pour things out 'cause lately things have been so wrong, and this is my escape. Blogging is another world I can be myself in. I'm getting tired day by day and maybe all I need is a little light to remind me that I can still make it, maybe to just remember what it felt to hope again. Or at least pull myself through. Or break down into pieces. Whichever might happen first :(

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Being a Girl

I can't remember the last time I wrote a long post. Lately I just write what came up in my mind and I'd lose interest in continuing to write a particular topic in less than 4 paragraphs, so blame my brain if you feel like my posts have been a little bit shorter than it used to. Well the good news is that yesterday I wrote on a full A4-sized paper and I reminded myself what real writing felt like! I just really need to be in a good mood in order to make a post, the comfort I find in good music, or a good article that warms the heart I just read. Great posts come flowing, without trying too hard, or thinking too much on what to write.
Inspiration, not perspiration. So here's what I got from writing randomly last night.

You think it's easy being a girl?
Girls deal with the misery of heels. Well, maybe not to most girls, but it's definitely a huge burden for me. I feel like I drag my feet along with me when I walk, rather than having my feet move fluidly with my body. I rejoice as I wear the oh-so comfortable flats on my non-working days. Every time I wear flats, it's like I can hear a group of choir around me singing, "Hallelujah!"

And even though I miss my long hair, I'm not the biggest fan of having to take care of long hair. It doesn't suit the weather in Jakarta, and you just have to deal with hair-fall, or other hair drama! Hair drama you ask? Let me give you an example. You purposely cut your bangs and it didn't end up the way you want it to, especially when the next day is a big day for you, and you just feel like inventing a quick hair-growing formula, 'cause it's frustrating yet you can't do anything about it!

Or how can you forget about the suddenly-there-pimples! You wake up thinking, "When did it got here?!" They show up at the most unwanted days. Then there's the dressing up part, the make-up, the never-ending hairdo sessions! BLARH!
I am not the most patient person when it comes to getting myself ready! You can check with my friends, looking fresh or polished is the last thing I think about when I go out with them. I don't enjoy my time at the salon, I don't like being in there for a long time, I don't get myself pampered, I've never dyed my hair, not planning to, and I don't even go out to get massages, I'm super ticklish, so cracking my back is all it takes to get the backaches go away.

I just realized how un-girly I've been. How my room has always been blue instead of pink. Most of the things in my cupboard are T-Shirts. I wear my Crocs to work, and it's the ones that make your feet look swollen, not the cute flats from Crocs.

Don't even get me started with PERIOD. Guys, remember that girls deal with periods! In case you're wondering why are we such 'female dogs' at this time of the month, well, imagine this, boys, try living your everyday routines with blood dripping from your "genital organ" 24/7 for 5 to 6 days nonstop, and at the same time, your stomach feels like a washing machine because everything inside felt twirling and twirling and twirling, and it drains your whole energy so you're easily tired, PLUS it hurts so much around the hips from all the blood coming out, argh it's just... TORTURE! That is why a friend of mine refer to it as my 'Wolverine Season' cause I've warned everyone around me before having my period :p

Girls don't mean some of the things they say, like when we talk to guys about a girl that we dislike then the next minute when we suddenly meet that girl she doesn't like and we just pretend like we're really good friends, but deep down we just don't like her, now that's what I mean with not really meaning what we say :p Or when a girl says that she's okay to a guy, sometimes it only means we want you to 'magically' read our mind, and say, "I know you're not okay. What's really up?" I know, I know, it's hard to understand a girl, sometimes us ourselves can't even make up our mind, that's what make us so hard to understand.

But us ladies should be thankful for the 'ladies only parking', or other benefits being a girl, like we can get a day off when we're having bad stomach cramps from PMS, or having a guy open the door, all thanks to the classic 'ladies first' rule. It's not that I hate being a girl, but there's a lot to deal with when you're a girl and sometimes guys just don't see that. Try seeing it from our perspective, maybe that will give a little insight on what we really want :p



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Snap Out of It!!!

I suppose I'm used to seeing a woman live independently without a man, like my Mom for example, I feel like it's becoming a normal thing. That's why I'm not craving for a relationship, although it would be the biggest lie to say that there's no curiosity for such. But I'm starting to feel like if it's an option I would like to consider. Live happily alone, get a decent job, adopt a kid, raise the kid, I suppose that would spare so much heartbreak, it would spare so much drama. I'm starting to wonder if taking chances would be worth it.

Love doesn't have to come from a man now, does it? You might think it's lunacy, but maybe you can grow old with something that wouldn't leave you. Maybe get a retriever. Or two. Or three.

But then again, I want to experience that memorable wedding next to the striking waves and dreamy sunset. Just with a few close people that I love. Maybe settle in a little city just outside Italy and run a farm that produces dairy products and maybe... Nutella! Be a full vegan and also develop a small winery. Picturing it gives me a ticklish feeling inside. So I guess... I shall try again?

Take a deep breath.




KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Empty Crowd

Everyone smell rich and you can tell that it's fine wine that they're drinking. Yes, it's another Mercedes Benz event. But out of the long talks about cars and the fashion you see around, I just felt bored. I don't know what's gotten into me nowadays. It's like something suck the life out of me. I work until late and I'm exhausted yet there's just no desire to sleep. I'm a zombie. Roar.

Okay, I know I said zombie, not lion, genius.

This past week didn't give me enough spare time. The only spare time I had was on Wednesday which I spent to meet old buddies and to visit my High School to see a basketball match between the current students and alumni. I slept at 2 in the morning and wake up at 7.30 the same day for the past seven days and it's starting to take a toll on me. Even the teachers I met in my old High School were shocked when they saw me. "Wow, I can tell you haven't had enough sleep." Yes, Sir. This lack of sleep really made me think so much slower, and my mood is just not good the whole day. I'm Mrs. Grumpy. I'm Mrs. Crankypants. I'm everything you don't want to be near of in the past few weeks.

I just wish everything would go on a much slower pace. Christmas is near and it's making me sad. Because when Christmas is finished, then New Year is up next. And I just don't feel I've been the most productive this past year. I hope this last month of the year would be the most unexpected.



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Lend a Hand

...HELLOOOOO!!!
Hope I didn't surprise you too much :p




My apologies for the lack of updates. The past couple of months have been tough for my country, and although I can't physically help them at the source of disaster, my prayers are with them, and I'm glad I did a little somethin-somethin too other than just sit down and watch the agony.

So this past couple of weeks I was involved in two charity events, the first is at the Hard Rock Cafe, titled 'Senandung Untuk Negri,' which was made up of a series of auctions from the celebrities' own belongings, from personal to professional stuffs, it was all sold for a good cause. There are so many singers and bands that performed at the event too.

There's a guitar that was sold for 10 million IDR, which once was owned by the band Gigi's guitarist, and also leather boots from one of the other rock bands. And... Let's see if I have a good memory. There's a picture of the legendary Jason Mraz which was signed with an authentic autograph too, with a little message for Indonesia. And also Delon's mic which was also autographed by the singer. There's also personal belongings like shoes and t-shirts being sold at the event. I went there with my cousin, Titin (a.k.a Christina), older brother, Jason, and my best friend, Maria. Had tons of fun as always when I'm with them :)

Me & Maria
Rio Febrian
Monita sang "God Bless the Child"
Titin, Me & Maria
Nadine Waworuntu, the talented daughter of the Indonesian diva, Ruth Sahanaya.
Awesome vocals!!! :D
Maria, Me & Jason

Then before we head home, we met up with Karen and Chacha at eX and head off for dinner at Kemayoran. Had a blast!


Jason, Me & Maria
Me & Maria
Well this is us being 'busy' with our phones :p


The other charity that I was involved in was different than the week before, which was the charity concert, this time I was really hands-on and got down and dirty. Well, this time it's a fashion show and it's a two-day event, so I got to wear one dress in a day, basically did a catwalk and the profits from the dress and other things went to charity of course :) Met a few new friends which shared a lot of experiences. Well, considering I'm inexperienced which made me an amateur, I was shocked that some of the models would want to do this, although they've done Fashion Weeks(s) and other huge brands' shows.

So the first day I got to wear a two-piece made up of a bustier and a flirty shorty short-short balloon skirt, was so pretty, I wished I could have taken it home with me, haha!

A Backstage Pict of Me and Sharon
I just don't like seeing myself wearing make-up :S


The second day I had to wear a soft pink dress, with pretty red stones on the waist that act like a belt.

Me and Charista
Sorry for the blurry pict :(

Those 2 weeks felt so fast, and I realized how much I love being involved in social events, it just proves more to me that there's so much things in this life that worth more than cash.



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX


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The Weak Link

I have to admit, I'm never and will never be good at losing people. Especially the ones who have left such footprints in the heart. Or become a great deal in taking part of my life. Call me an extremist, but I have to lose all sorts of contact by any means to make me forget. It's painful but it's the only quick way of getting rid of the thought of someone. It's like a waxing process, it might burn your skin for a while, but then it's spotless. That's just how I do it. I have to erase all contact details and train myself to live without them. I don't believe the fact that people go out of your life because they just have to or it's "time for them to leave," leaving is an option, so if they choose to leave then you're left with one option, close the door. You know how much pain it caused you, don't risk your heart getting broken again. People can't move on because they make exceptions for people that make them an option. There are signs, and you're not blind, you just chose not to see it and pretend like everything's fine.

Funny. How what you're trying to tell people actually hits yourself right in the head. I wish I can reach out into my skull, take my brain out, disconnect the nerves that had anything to do with people I'm trying to forget, and put it right back in. Yeah, that'll do it.



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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I swore to myself I'm not going to let my emotions get to me anymore, but you just have to make exceptions at one point or another. I let my guards down too sometimes. Just to prove to myself that I can't do everything by myself, I can't break my own heart and pick up the teeny tiny pieces while trying to put it all together. It's not made of stone, I also hope it's not made of glass which makes it fragile. I hope it's made up of a pillow-like substance. So every time it fell it just would bounce back or it'd be okay. I'm such a sucker for quotes, they make my day, you see one quote and it just rings in your head for hours. It's not good enough to let you forget the memories, it's good enough to kill the pain for quite some time.

You've got 2 choices. You can either sit and cry or spread your wings and fly.

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Dummy2Dummy Guide in 'Are You with the Right Person?'

I might not be a pro here, but I have a little somethin-somethin to share. Wisdom-- if that's how I call it (ha! I wish) about how to find out if you're with the right partner. Well I'm pretty much inexperienced, so that makes me a dummy, and if you listen to me, then that makes you a dummy as well. Haha, no I'm just kidding ;) this is just another random post. Don't pay much attention to it :p

I think if someone wants to be a big part of your life, then he/she has to also blend well with the people who are already a big part of your life, family and good friends for instance. Trust me, being with someone who brings you and your loved ones apart from you, won't last long for all I know. Give 'em little "tests" along the way, it might come in handy :)

You'll look forward talking to him/her. Even if it's for just a short catch-up, or just to talk about the most random stuffs, you shouldn't be avoiding to see his/her name flashing on your mobile phone, or erasing his/her text just to get away from communicating with him/her.


You both will know how to keep your pride to a minimum level. Both of you will soon learn when is the best time to say sorry, and in most needed times, it's when you feel like you don't want to or when you feel like you're not wrong.


Soon enough you'll have to deal with differences that you meet along the way. Well, you both are made up of different heads which makes it more obvious that you both would have different views on some things. It's not about how many things in common that you both have, it's more about dealing with differences which would lead you to a much stronger foundation to your relationship.

And don't give up on what you've built in time to time based on what you feel momentarily. Make wise decisions, think about the consequences you have to deal with in the long run. Most importantly, if you know, you'll know :) I might have not found the right partner, but there's no harm in writing it all down as my own guide (I know, I know, I'm that pathetic...)



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Go Cry About It, Why Don't You?

Dim the lights, let's fade for a while.....



Funny how love works, by the time you swore you never going to fall for someone, you stumble into someone else's arms. I've been so protective of this little thing called heart and it's so hard for me to open up. It's just going to get harder now from here on out. How can you ever see the silver lining out of a heartbreak? The only good thing about it is the fact that heartbreaks inspire artists to make good love songs, which only leads us mortals to a much worse heartbreak. No, I can't afford to pick the little pieces anymore to just risk it to get my heart broken again for the..... I don't know how many times already. I've lost count.

I know I say a whole lot of crap. I told myself "That was it" for the gazillion times and I'll still going to give love another shot. I'm going to be a curious little monkey (again!) and get myself into believing that the next time would be different. This time it could actually be something you've always wished for. I guess you can never give up on love, no matter how much you try.


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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I am going to disappoint. Sooner or later I'm going to get mad at the smallest things and nag for attention. I am going to be jealous of certain things. I am going to mess up and maybe not be what you've expected me to be. I say the most random things and tell the lousiest jokes. I am going to be the most vulnerable when I admit that I'm wrong, so please don't take advantage of it. I would be very fragile when it comes to what I feel, and sometimes tears only mean unspoken words. I need my quiet moments where I don't want to talk to anyone, and I prefer if you'd understand that I need some space. I am never going to regret the fact that I'm not perfect, but if you deal with my imperfections and chose to love me for it, I am forever yours

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Thankful

If you've read a lot of what I write here, then you'll know that it's not always rainbows and sunshine, there's a dark side to me that a lot of people don't really see,
because I simply don't show it.

I don't really show how thankful I am to the people that have really got me through every ups and downs, but deep down I really,
really do appreciate the time and effort that they've made to keep me on track and alive today.

There are only a few friends who I know would be there through whatever, it was simply tested by the small things that might not seem like a big deal,
but those things are the ones that opened my eyes.

And to the people that have only seen me a few times, maybe just once or twice, or even haven't met me in flesh,
yet they've made me feel like I'm no stranger to them.
I still couldn't believe half the people I've made friends with, or meet until this day. It wouldn't even cross my mind to have met such powerful, wonderful, such inspiring people, that have somehow made me feel I'm special,
and it's a great feeling to have!

Living under insecurities will only eat me up alive,
so I've decided to boost up my level of confidence, and to those who made me feel like I actually worth something, thank you. Thank you for keep me going although there are a lot of times where I feel like I've had it and I'm about to give up, you make me feel lifted up again! I'm blessed to be surrounded by the most amazing people in the world. You can smile about it, yes, I'm talking about you.



...okay you can stop smiling, now you're just getting creepy...

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Lily: There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake." So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not... Does any of this make sense to you?

Ted: I don't know, you said 'mistake' a lot.

Quoted from How I Met Your Mother, and dang it, it's too true!

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Conquering Queries.

There are some things in life that you'll learn without boards and chalks.
You are going to get your heart broken, you are going to lose a certain amount of people, you are going to get yourself hurt and sometimes the bruises stay for good.
You'll get to find wingless angels who you call friends, you are going to dream and make them all come true, in your own rules, do it in your very own ways.
Things go wrong, you'll screw up, but life just find its own way at the end.
Believing became a great deal in your life, just like music, you start realizing you can't live without it.

Sometimes you question why in the world is your life so different, sometimes you feel like normal is a thing you've been longing for.
You find what you like, what you don't like, what your weaknesses might be, the things that mold you as a person you are today.
Then you came to realize that asking questions about life won't get you answers to it, you have to figure things out yourself.
But if you don't touch lives while you're here on Earth, then you're not even living.
And how can the world want me to change? They're the ones that stay the same...



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Smileabouts.

A not-so-important note, yet I'm going to write it anyways. I might be easily pleased, but this is one of the days I would remember for the rest of my life. It was the perfect respond to what I've been longing to hear, I am still shocked myself. And I would have things to smile about for the next few years, decades, centuries :) I'm glad I don't have to keep wondering what could have been, it's perfect :) I believe it's the right place, it's the right time.

...it's okay if you don't get what I'm saying, I was just talking to myself :p

...yes, I do that a lot

On the other hand, Obama came to town! Whoopee! Made the traffic a whole lot worse than it usually is. You know how awful traffic is on a daily basis, now he adds up the chaos by closing all the major streets and redirecting them to other roads that already have worse traffic than the major streets!

I read an article in the New York Times about an interview with Obama's childhood friend which I find super interesting! So this man, Slamet Junaedi, reminisced on how Obama once asked a group of boys whether they wanted to grow up to be president, a soldier or a businessman. So Obama explained that the president would own nothing, while a soldier would possess weapons and on the other hand, a businessman would have money.

Mr. Junaedi and his younger brother, both of whom later joined the Indonesian military, said they wanted to become soldiers. Another boy, a future banker, said he would become a businessman.

“Then Barry said he would become president and order the soldier to guard him and the businessman to use his money to build him something,” Mr. Januadi said. “We told him, ‘You cheated. You didn’t give us those details.’ ”

“But we all became what we said we would,” he said.

Hmm, so technically we've been getting it wrong all along. Obama did NOT live the American dream. He's in Indonesia when he dreamed that he would become a president, but he became THE president of the United States. So he's actually living the Indonesian dream ;)



KEEP THE FAITH

XOXOX

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Don't Feed Me

What keeps me satisfied is now eating me alive.
I guess now the possibilities in life taken me to new extremes.
I just realized that I've always been the person who takes pleasure behind feeling frightened, behind anxiety.
I settle with the thought of being uneasy.
It's like crying without any reasons.
Sometimes you just don't know why you cry, but it makes you feel better anyway.
Or like rubbing your eyes when they itch, it doesn't make it any better, yet it gives you that comfortable feeling after rubbing it, which leads you to a much worse irritation.

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Up-and-coming

Finally assembled the power to make a new post since I was unable to get myself eating properly these few days (hopefully lost the stubborn weight I've been trying to get rid of). Slept from 8 p.m til' 8 a.m on Saturday, a record I must say I'm not quite proud of. In a recovery process, yet I have Mercedes Benz waiting for me in less than 2 hours. I'm not even tempted into eating the most delicious food there is, I've just lost my whole appetite, and I'm hoping next week I'll be in my best shape yet.

So, I've decided what I want to do in the near future. Taking my leap of faith. Hoping this would actually be worth my while. Speaking of the near future, Christmas is just around the corner. Went to the supermarket to get some milk and saw some Santa pillows being sold on the racks. Christmas makes me sad. I don't look forward to Christmas or birthdays. I sound like some dark, sad person, but that's just the simple truth.

What happened recently in Indonesia really has torn me. We are all just covered in deep grief. I know Indonesia is just known for its disasters such as the terrible bombings, the deadly tsunamis, and now the frantic volcano. But just like how we dealt with everything that had happened, we're holding on. Yes, we're still holding on.




It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
It takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to know you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain
La la la la la la la life is wonderful

- Life is Wonderful, Jason Mraz


KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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And It Keeps On Turning.....

It goes up and down. Yes, life is like a wheel that spins nonstop. Sometimes when life takes an unexpected turn, all you can do is just roll along with it. There are certainly things you won't easily accept and just adjust to, but as I've said before, sometimes life doesn't offer you any choices, in a way it forces you to go along with it. Experience is a hard teacher because it gives the tests first and the lesson afterwards.

You know what I learn as life goes on? I learn that you'll find people worth living, family worth sacrificing, friends worth fighting for. And the one thing you should never give up on is your dreams. A friend of mine reminded me that success is not a place you need to go to, if you're heading towards the goal in your life, then you're already living a successful life :)

Everyone age. But as you grow older, you shouldn't stop making it happen! You shouldn't be discouraged because you think 'it' has not happened for you, yet everyone around you are already at the place they've been longing to be in. Not every story has the same process, where's the fun and creativity in that? ;)

Figure out who your true friends are along the way, keep the people that have been with you from the very beginning. Visualize yourself in the place where you'd love to see yourself in. Life's unexpected anyways, nobody knows what tomorrow holds. Trust me, I've experienced it firsthand.



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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Why You Shouldn't Date A Smoker

This is not that important... Just some random stuffs I feel like saying! The guide to living a happy and healthy life :p My version of why you shouldn't date a smoker :)

1. If you wear contacts, the smoke gets your eyes all dry and red... So that's not good.
2. Well the composition of cigarettes itself is not good so if you inhale all of that because your partner is a smoker, even if you're a passive smoker, it'll still damage and contaminate your lungs then that's not good.
3. No matter how many liter of perfume you pour on your body, you'll always smell like cigarettes.
4. His/her breath will be unpleasant to be near with.
5. He/she can't stand a day without smoking, that means cigarette's a priority, texting you or calling you would be an option.
6. A guy or a girl who can't even love or take care of their own darn self, wouldn't even have the power to take care of others.
7. Even if they love you, they'll love you more than they love their cigars, meaning they will leave smoking for becoming a better person. Guys/girls might say, "If you love me for who I am, you'll have to deal with the fact that I'm a smoker." Truth is, if you love someone, you'll want the best for them, not letting them DIE SLOWLY by what YOU do, because automatically you would want to live longer with that person that you love...

I know so many people would disagree with the things I wrote down, but that's just my opinion, I think you wouldn't want to have the person you love suffocate, or letting that person die slowly.



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XOXOX

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New Trends, Old Friends

I don't really go out on Fridays, traffic in the city is the worst next to Mondays, but since there's an event held in fX that made me pretty excited about going-- not only because my high school friends are coming along, but also a yard sale was held by fashion bloggers of Jakarta-- I decided to get my lazy ass up and got through the insane traffic anyways. Little did I know, I was in for a fun night up ahead ;)

So I arrived at about 5 p.m-ish and met up with Titin and Gilvina. The funny thing is, we haven't got the chance to talk about where we'll meet up, yet somehow we all gathered in the same place by chance! We decided to go to Mazee, the place where the yard sale took place, and Gilvina also told me that her senior is performing in just a second! So we hurried up, and we were in time for the performance and also looked around through the great outfits and other accessories! The place was already packed with people starving for a stylish treat, and I'm sure their appetites are filled with satisfaction!

Mazee, 6th floor, where the yard sale took place!

Inside the toilet just after we met by coincidence!
Left to right: Agnes, Me, Titin

Straight down to business! Looking through everything and anything :)
Top picture: Gilvina and Me
Bottom picture: Gilvina checking out the awesome items by Riotous by SEM

Me in the middle of the hectic transactions happening at the yard sale :p

Finally reunited!!!
Top (Left to Right): Gilvina, Genevie, Me
Bottom (Left to Right): Titin, Agnes, Willy

The booths by all the fashion bloggers

...patiently dealing directly with all the customers :)

TADAAAAA!
One of the fashionable people that made this yard sale happen and a huge success!
Sonia Eryka :D

I felt short standing next to people wearing heels :p
The oh-so-fabulous bloggers!
Left to Right: Michelle Koesnadi, Sonia Eryka, Me, Gilvina

And so it was only 6.30 p.m yet everyone were already starving, so we decided to leave the yard sale and grab some dinner. We went through Mazee and took quite a few pics before exiting.


Inside the enormous fitting room! It could literally fill up to 10 people.
Left to right: Genevie, Willy, Agnes, Me, Titin, Gilvina

Two others joined the fun! Chacha and Karen :)
Top (Left to right): Me and Agnes
Bottom (Left to right): Gilvina, Karen, Chacha

Met an old high school friend! Sonny :)
Left to right: Titin, Jason, Agnes, Me, Gilvina, Sonny, Willy

Potenzio
It was a first for me to see these guys perform, but definitely would not be the last :D
And the senior I said earlier, is the lead singer of the band. How nice of him to give a shoutout to Gilvina :)

Taking pictures with the funny-looking frames we found :p
Left to right: Me, Gilvina, Agnes and Chacha

With Potenzio's lead singer, Narendra, such a friendly guy :)

What can I say, we love taking pics ;p
Lefe to right: Titin, Gilvina, Me, Agnes

After strolling around fX, we chose Mangkok Putih for dinner! :)
Left to right: Genevie, Willy, Me, Catherine, Titin, Agnes, Gilvina, Chacha

Oh and someone also came in by surprise!
Catherine joined us for dinner! :D


Left to right: Genevie, Willy, Me, Karen, Chacha



Wasn't feeling too hungry so I decided to go with Pinklicious from Sour Sally for dinner


After being caught in the worst traffic, Gilvina's boyfriend, Dimas, finally came in to join us too ;)


One night to remember!
Left to right: Agnes, Titin, Karen, Gilvina, Willy, Genevie, Jason


Shoutout to the ever-so-beautiful singer/songwriter, boutique owner/fashion blogger Sonia Eryka who invited me to come! (and I would run out of adjectives to describe her :p)

And that is all for now, check out my Facebook album for more pictures of the night! I'm outie ;)



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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