I'm Just Never Gonna Be Good Enough

I'm not perfect. I realized that, entirely. Don't blame me for that, I embrace that about me.


I'm just tired of not being appreciated enough of what I did, of what I went through, that's frustrating. Like no matter what I do in life, it's just never going to be enough, ever.

There's always going to be something missing, just not good enough.

Life's unfair, I dealt with it.

But sometimes I just wish I could get a minute of happiness, you know? Just for once in my life, everything would fall into the right places. Nothing to worry about, everything felt right.

I guess that's just too much to hope for, I realized that that's the furthest I'll ever get, misery.

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Wishful Thinking

I know everyone has their own world inside their head, and we wander off in it. Sometimes we don't let others to know about it, because we simply don't want to let it show. Sometimes we argue inside our head, we wish for what according to us is right, but sometimes reality doesn't let that happen.


That's why you give in or give up, because reality is not always what we want it to be. But there's nothing wrong with being hopeful, to have a little faith. Even when life knocks you down on the ground, sometimes the real challenge is to get back on your feet and stand tall above it all.

I used to hate birthdays, even I spent last year's birthday crying in bed. Something is never right on my birthday. Plus, I feel like as I get older, my problems get more complicated. Each year just proves to me that the more guys I meet, the worse they get by the year. Endless, I know. Honestly, it gets so tiring.

And I miss this. I miss blogging. Now that I have no one I can pour anything and whatever to, I feel like cyber-world is an alternative. Sounds pathetic, huh? How it seems I can trust anyone anymore... But that's just the awful truth.

People said I became more quiet this year, which is pretty weird 'cause I feel like I still talk as much as I used to, but I do get a little more reticent, which makes me picky of the topic I talk about. But that's life, right, how the more things change around you, the more things seem to stay the same.

Bottom line, I got nothing to complain about. This life is far from perfect, and definitely from a happily ever after, but I'm on my way.



"... and I'm on my way to believing"
-- The Only Exception, Paramore



KEEP THE FAITH
XOXOX

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I can't think of anyone else who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you

Don't mind me if I get weak in the knees, 'cause you have that effect on me, you do...

Give me a lesson on how to steal a heart as fast as you stole mine...
Always by my side, meant to be together, meant for no one but each other...
I can't think of anyone else who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you...

And not that I don't wanna replace you, but the more I try to replace you is the more I realized you're irreplaceable...
But I'm happy now that you're happy, I know she's so much better, because deep down I know you deserve the best...
I used to do so much for you, now that we're not a part of each other's lives, it's like I lost half of who I used to be...

I thought I was strong, but I guess none of it make any sense anymore if you're not here with me...
It's like I can't think straight, I've lost directions...
'Cause I still smile every time I see a picture of us, a song that resembles us, anything that reminds me of how beautiful we were...
But I know somehow we keep on running into each other, because that's just how we are, the hardest thing is goodbye...

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